beauty in a wicked world.

Beauty in a wicked world. It is something we all look for, strive for, and sometimes we catch it in our rear view mirror when its too late and there is no making a u-turn. This title comes from one of my favorite songs by Amos Lee, Soul Suckers. It is one of my favorite songs. period. To me, its saying that you shouldn't let anyone dictate your life and what you feel is beautiful. Only you can figure that out for yourself. I've learned this lesson the hard way and have found people in my life who lift me up, not try to drag me on the ground.

Music. Friends. Family. Lazy Saturdays. Driving with the Windows Down. Mother Nature. Simplicity. Sometimes I just have to take a deep breath and smile to myself. Even though I may go through some rough patches, I know where to look for a little beauty in my life to get through it. The simple things in life are all we really need sometimes. Even if you happen to catch me on a bad day (and those happen often), just know that a little part of me is probably smiling about something. I've been on a journey for the past 21 years, and that journey isn't close to being over. Hell, I'm not going to lie, its a bit scary to think about what my life is going to be like in 5, 10, 15 years. During the past three years, I have learned more about myself than I could ever imagine.

For now, I'm going to live life day to day. I have five years to figure out what I'm going to be doing in five years, and that is that.

Since music is one of the biggest influences in my life, I'll try to give you a taste of what I'm listening to and why. I don't know if you have heard of Bon Iver, but wow. His music...just, wow. Sometimes his voice can put me in a thoughtful trance, and sometimes it can completely clear my mind. This is the kind of music you want to listen to while driving through the country on a warm, sunny day, for no particular reason.